Having a hard time with this one

For those of you who know me well you will know how hard this is for me to write. Kevin and I have been trying for awhile to have a sibling for AJ. After many doctor visits and multiple medications and procedures with negative results we have made a decision to stop. We will not be doing any more fertility treatments. We have both decided that with every try it gets more and more emotionally draining...as well as financially draining. We came to the conclusion that first of all we need to put more effort into the miracle of AJ and concentrate of him. We have also felt like God is leading us elsewhere. We are going to work on getting our finances straightened out so we can buy a house. Then we are going to look at either foster to adopt or international adoption. This was not an easy decision for either of us because we would both like to have another crack at pregnancy and delivery and give AJ a sibling that way (he asks for a brother or sister every day) but I think God must have a very special child/children in mind for our family...we will just sit back and see what His plan is. For now I will be healing my heart and getting ready for what He has in mind for us.